LIFE GOING DOWNILL!-DEC 2005-DEC2006!


I had gone on a short visit to meet my parents in Karachi, in December 2005.Sadly my father felt unwell, so he was admitted in the hospital He was not breathing properly, within a matter of days his condition worsened, and he passes away.I cried my eyes out,felt a very strange grief, but we had to come back to Singapore, because kids school were starting, so we came back.I was shocked to find out that I was pregnant! I could not believe it! Not at all planned!I begged Saad to terminate, because I could not handle so much- trying to grieve for my father, and an unplanned pregnancy! So I bottled up all my feelings inside, never grieved for my father, just became numb for the whole 9 months!Throughout the pregnancy I ate a lot- it provided comfort ! I never used to see the ultra scans, because I could not identify with this baby! I felt guilty that after my father’s death, I conceived, this guilt went on for 2 years!My father passed away on 9.9.2005, Malaikaah was born on 9.9.2006-This sentence says it all! STRANGE! The minute I looked at her, I in love at once, everything forgotten-I kept her name Malaikaah- means angel in Arabic. God took away my father but gave me this angel!

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14 thoughts on “LIFE GOING DOWNILL!-DEC 2005-DEC2006!

  1. You can’t really argue with god’s justice since things always happen for a good reason. He took an angle and replaced it with another one. Life’s a ride, regardless how hideous or smooth the trek we have to accept it and move on. Hope everything is working well, ia.

  2. It was a cruel coincidence that you became pregnant just as you lost your father. Despite the difficult circumstances the miricle is that you felt so much love for this unexpected child when you first saw it. What better way to celebrate the memory of your father.

  3. I cannot tell you how often this happens. A former business partner died about a year ago. Her daughter married at her bedside, then conceived shortly after. Her baby was born so close to her mom’s birthday, it was more than coincidence.
    I think through all the trials and suffering we humans go through, if we don’t yet know that there’s a larger picture – a bigger, more amazing story we’ll only get to glimpse parts of – one which gives us magic and hope and clarity as well, when we least expect them – well, it’s a shame. Because life truly is a miracle.

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